Terrifying

You should know writing a blog terrifies me.

Right up there with jumping out of an airplane, one of the most terrifying things I can think of for an acrophobiac like myself, is having my writing out there for anyone to read. I can barely write a text message without compulsively worrying about the way it will be interpreted and what it will say about me. I am constantly concerned with what light people see me in. And to me writing is a 10 million candlepower spotlight shining right down on me.

But you should also know that I love conquering my terrors. It thrills me. Skydiving may be the most horrifying thing I can imagine, but I will do it some day. Not because I want to, but because I have to. I have to feel the thrill.

So with this I post the first of many thoughts accessible to the entire world. Something that has terrified me for a long time. Something that I can finally feel the thrill of conquering. I have no idea where this blog will lead. I only know it scares the hell out of me. And that's a good thing.